I understand what you're talking about.
You feel like a number, and I've been told that I was just a number.
The corrections field is always hiring.
I could quit, I could get fired, I could even die, and noone would care.
Just like the inmates, there's always someone out there ready to take my place.
Corrections could care less about the years of experiance. So why do I stay, simple, Factories are alays laying off and I'm just tired of moving from job to job. I've put up with lots of crap over the years, most from supervisors and peers.
Hang in there.
I aint even about getting respenct anymore. I would just like to see everyone stay out of my area and let me do my job. Sometimes people will come to my area looking for problems, their areas are so messed up that if they can show fault in other areas it will take heat off them. Our faults are so few that when they are made it becomes noticable.
If you don't work corrections, then don't. It's a trap. Over time you become comfortably numb. You become numb to everyone and everything. You can see someone in pain and you just don't care. you can see death and you just don't care. you'll see humans mistreating other humans and you just don't care. You become numb. Befor it's all over with you'll either pick up smoking, drinking, swearing, lying, or you'll get a worse habit. You'll become numb. In this world noone will ever believe the truth, but a lie is believed. It is believed by both officers and inmates.
Corrections is a trap. Don't get caught.
It ruins relationships, the mind, and the body. Noone cares. You just get numb.
So why stay? It's a garontied paycheck. In a world where it's hard to find work or jobs layoff. It's a paycheck.