Thank you all and thank you for sharing your losses too. My mum was 87 and still living independantly on her own. It was unexpected and happened quickly without any suffering which was a blessing for her but hard on us.
I have a small circle of very good friends here who have been very supportive who have been checking I'm OK every day and it is good to talk about personal tragedys with people you trust.
I have just arranged my flight to go back for 10 days, volcano permitting, for her funeral so I will be with the family for a while.
Toney, my guitar certainly been a comfort to me and teaching some of my young students on Saturday and today has helped too.
"Do, or do not; there is no try"